A Sudden Change in Plans

I don't want to talk about this because I want to be happy with where I am right now, but it all needs to be said:

A lot has been going on the past few weeks, and God has definitely been keeping me on my toes. As you know, I have been having some health issues lately, and a good portion of them I have dealt with throughout my life. I didn't think of it as that big of a deal because I'm used to it. It all got worse. The sisters in my district, along with my mom all kind of made me promise to see a doctor. Since then, they have come up with no new information, and they don't know how to help me. I saw the MTC doctor again this past Monday, and when I told him that I had a rough weekend, even after trying what he and others suggested, he was worried. The GI specialists wanted to do an endoscopy and/or colonoscopy if things didn't improve. Even then, it made no sense to squeeze it in and then have me sent off to Hungary next week.

As of this last Monday evening, I found out that I was going to be sent home either Tuesday or Wednesday. I can't say that the possibility never crossed my mind, but I always think of all the possible outcomes. I like to be prepared. Well, despite that, it was not at all what I expected, and it all happened fast. SO fast.

The short version is, they want me to spend some time at home trying to figure things out, get medically cleared, and then they will figure out what to do next. I am also released as a full-time missionary for the time being.

Coming home is not what I was expecting or hoping for, but I do love my family so much. It is amazing to see them, and then to see my brother Tim instead of waiting the full 3.5 years we thought it would be (since he just came home from his mission in Seoul Korea 2 weeks ago). Even before coming home, I could see so many blessings and opportunities in all of this. I can’t stay too sad because I know that there’ll be more blessings I won't even realize until looking back. I am doing good, but you know, REALLYYYY wanting to be in Hungary.

Ahh, I feel bipolar! One minute I'm sad and crying and the next I feel comforted by being with my family. If you can't tell already, I'm doing my utmost to see the blessings and the positive, but it really is rough. This has all happened so fast that I haven't been able to process it. I think my emotions don't know what to feel.

Szeretlek titeket (I love you all),
Sara

PS
Again, nagyon bocsi (very sorry) for not answering emails in forever. It has been crazy.