Hungary for the Gospel in Montana: Week 36

Dearest friends,

I love our area and have been grateful for the meetings we’ve been able to have with the youth and families of our ward. I am also thankful for ed and the other help and training tools we have access to. Our goal is to rely more so upon those tools and apply them as our focus. I pray that we become the tools that God needs us to be in this transition period for missionary work!

I have felt quite unbalanced the last couple of weeks! Remember how I was sent home from the MTC because of health concerns? These health concerns have been present for most of my life, but it’s not always as severe. I’ve been having flare ups lately and it’s been creating difficulty in maintaining a good mental/emotional standing! I honestly think that my physical health issues are caused by my mental state (such as stress), or they’re at least working in a cycle, affecting each other. I am grateful for my companion Sister Lewis. She is a rock. She is even keeled and is seemingly unaffected by the world around her. It is great to have her stability and strength to influence and uplift me, as well as everyone else around her.

Anyway, I am doing VERY well right now and have been for the past couple of days. It’s been a wonderful gift and blessing to be able to partake of the sacrament again and renew covenants in that way. It has truly been a source of renewal and strength. Isolation is not my jam and it has been a real challenge for me -- despite all of the wonderful resources and guidance, for which I am thankful. I am utterly grateful for the present challenges though! They’ve forced me to face myself in ways I’ve never had to before. I’ve had a pattern to try to escape myself! As a result of God’s great wisdom in sending me here and at this time, I have been put into such incredibly uncomfortable (and wonderfully uncomfortable) circumstances, in which I can truly grow. This is my goal, to grow, learn and overcome as much as I can from each challenge --as well as each blessing-- that comes my way.

I have realized that I need an outlet --a source to help me sort out reality versus what’s all in my head-- to help me focus better and become more effective and successful. Through my pursuit of filling that need (and actually being present to the fact that something new had to be done) I’ve been able to feel and hear the Lord in new and wonderfully personal and sacred ways. It is ONLY HE that can deliver us from the grips of the world around us and the natural man in us. Unless we can see clearly, we will ALWAYS be in danger! Without God’s help, we simply WILL NOT be able to see and understand reality. It is with our spiritual eyes that we are able to discern truth and reality.

This is why there has been a pattern of emphasis on PERSONAL REVELATION in recent addresses from church leadership and authorities. As President Nelson has said, “...in coming days, it will not be possible to survive spiritually without the guiding, directing, comforting, and constant influence of the Holy Ghost.” It is my plea to you, along with President Nelson, to increase your spiritual capacity to receive revelation. How do you hear Him? Remember, God manifests Himself to us according to our desires to hear Him. Trust in Him, submit to Him, rely on Him. He has all power and all wisdom to sustain you. If we pour out our hearts to Him in continual prayer, we will know that He knows us and hears us:

12 And Alma and his people ... did pour out their hearts to him; and he did know the thoughts of their hearts.
13 And it came to pass that the voice of the Lord came to them in their afflictions, saying: Lift up your heads and be of good comfort, for I know of the covenant which ye have made unto me; and I will covenant with my people and deliver them out of bondage.
14 And I will also ease the burdens which are put upon your shoulders, that even you cannot feel them upon your backs, even while you are in bondage; and this will I do that ye may stand as witnesses for me hereafter, and that ye may know of a surety that I, the Lord God, do visit my people in their afflictions.
15 And now it came to pass that the burdens which were laid upon Alma and his brethren were made light; yea, the Lord did strengthen them that they could bear up their burdens with ease, and they did submit cheerfully and with patience to all the will of the Lord.
16 And it came to pass that so great was their faith and their patience that the voice of the Lord came unto them again, saying: Be of good comfort, for on the morrow I will deliver you out of bondage.
17 And he said unto Alma: Thou shalt go before this people, and I will go with thee and deliver this people out of bondage.

I pray that we all may be the tools that God needs us to be in this transition period for the world!

With all of my love,
Sara

Fun little thing:
I accompanied hymns for the sacrament meeting (not well, but I DID IT!) In the past I have tended to be nervous to play piano, let alone accompany! I have had a goal to work on improving that so I can help where there are needs, forgetting my sometimes silly and nervous self! It has been good(: